by Pamela Goodman
It was only a little over three years ago that I walked into a ballet class for adults... for the first time ever. Except for dancing endlessly in my home as a little girl (dancing to big band music and jazz) and taking one season of ballet classes as a wee tot, I never took a dance class. My mother however was a dancer... ballroom, tap... she tried out for the Rockettes when she was young and was accepted but her mother forbide it (it was considered "racy" in my Mom's day). So when I lost her and my Dad and my stepfather (all in a year and I half) and trying to find a way to ease my pain... I decided to try dance.
Well, needless to say after the first class I was hooked. I couldn't get enough of it. I had found my passion. Most people live out there lives without a passion and I thought I would as well. When I went to class I left the world behind; I felt beautiful both physically and mentally. I started going two times a week and then three. I would be doing releves as I was brushing my teeth each night. I would practice Jete's and pas de bourree's and piroutette's every night across my living room and into the kitchen! When I was told I was too old to do a split I thought.. what... no....and each night for five months I practiced until I finally did it.
Then a little over a year ago, two women from OnStage were in a ballet class with me and mentioned the company to me. Hmmm.. performing... I would have to think about that. I continued my ballet classes but never stopped thinking about OnStage. Then one night I checked out the website... I spent hours that night reading and looking at pictures and then went to YouTube and watched dance after dance. I decided that night that I would audition for the next season.
I auditioned... I made it... I chose my dances. What I didn't know was what I was in for. Up until then, dancing was just about me. I was now looking at being part of a choreographer's vison and making that vision happen with the rest of the dancer's in the piece. This was about all of us making something beautiful happen, this wasn't just about me anymore. I felt a whole new level of passion that I couldn't imagine would happen. I worked hard, couldn't wait for the video's to come out each week so I could practice my parts.
I waited to write this blog until after the performance ... hence "next stage" because yet again I didn't know how I would feel. At first... total fear! My mind would flip flop back and forth to "what if I forget my steps... I don't want to let anyone down.. to stop it... while there are dancer's far more experienced and beautiful then me... I auditioned.. I learned my steps... now bring your passion to the stage". First run though came... oh...I didn't do so good I thought to myself. Then later that day the magic happened. I saw some many dancer's cheering each other on... I was told by dancer's, that I really didn't know, "good job." Then, Jessi told me to feel the emotion, just go out there and feel the emotion and that's just what I did. I went on that stage and performed. I felt scared and excited. I heard the audience clapping. I may not have danced to perfection, but I danced with my heart. I have a new challenge and a new passion now. I hope to be dancing with Onstage for year's to come as long as they will have me ..... by the way... I'm 58 years old... never give up on your passion. Thanks Onstage!
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