by Jillian Coen
A few weeks into Season 6, I started to feel super tired. I thought maybe it was due to teaching 5 classes a week, 4 rehearsals, and just being a bad ass bitch in general. Nope, I was pregnant. I thought to myself "So, what? This won’t even affect me for like, half a year." Boy, was I wrong.
I spent a few rehearsals running to the bathroom, and almost every single time I was at OSDC, I was sucking on saltines. It didn’t take long for fellow dancers to notice something was up. It was very new and very exciting... when I wasn’t face first in the toilet.
My choreographers were super nice about letting me take it easy when I needed to, even rearranging a few things so I would be more comfortable. This was also my first season as a choreographer, and I wouldn’t have made it without Tova , who I co-choreographed with.
Come show day, I was feeling like I got hit by a truck. I was also cursing myself for my love of crop tops, and it was too late to get new costumes. After a box of saltines, and some good dressing room buddies, I made it! I was so proud of myself. I even went to the after party because I knew I was taking the next season off.
Like THAT would happen. I asked my doctor if I should participate in this season and he abruptly said no. I asked my friends and family, they suggested I take it easy. My husband said "Can’t you just be pregnant?" The thought of "just being pregnant" was not appealing to me. I am looking forward to becoming a Mom in every way possible, and making my son proud. But, I wanted to show him that I was STILL a bad ass bitch. (Trust me, any child I have would think that is a good, wholesome quality.)
I went to auditions to "help out" and "just see." I wanted to convince myself that I would be ok with not doing the season. I told myself, "I’ll go, see what I am missing," and then learn to live with it... I would be back next season. Then all of a sudden I filled out my roster and I signed myself up for three pieces.
It’s now week seven, and I am going strong! I feel better than I did at the Season 6 show. The performance is less than a month away, and I can’t wait to work my bump out on the stage. I definitely have days where I am exhausted, or my feet feel like cinderblocks. Hello, cankles! But at the end of this season, I will be so proud of myself that I was able to do it. Next week, I will be in my third trimester, and I am feeling more beautiful than ever. The only thing I REALLY had to take a season off from was crop tops.
[See Jillian and her baby bump perform on Sunday, June 22 at The Boston Conservatory. Tickets on sale now!]
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